Tanks

Tanks have crossed the border,

I read while I wait for my coffee.

Oh, after so much Covid, this is life,

waiting in line for someone else to brew you a nice cup of Italian coffee.

 

Another notification.

War in places I cannot pronounce.

Of borders I can’t place on a map.

And a newsletter, discount on shoes.

Maybe I need new ones, good, resistant,

for my daily battle at the office.

 

I read the news quickly to have something to say

in case my colleagues bring it up.

Oh but those shoes.

And another newsletter.

Low prices in all winter clothing.

 

I take the subway while drinking my coffee.

I forget the news and listen to a podcast.

 

News of wars somewhere not that far away,

if I cared about geography.

But  I have a job, I can take the subway

and buy coffee to take a way.

I can walk in the shoes I already have

and enjoy the free air in my own town.

 

I read about wars I don’t understand.

 

I don’t feel frighten.

I’ve forgotten the wars on my side of the border.

The lack of freedom choking…

The sounds of guns and bombs

even when there is silence.

The colors of the war

creating an artificial nightly sunset.

 

The not knowing.

Colors

colours, light

shapes and movement

she is

looking through a window

handcuffed

feet tied

free to fly

in her dreams

her mind will always be

hers

free

Pulse

Check my pulse

See?

I’m alive

I’m breathing!

No matter the words,

the guns,

the wrong

I’m right here

in front of you

Living, loving!

Check my pulse

See?

I’m alive

I’m breathing!

I’m on top of the world

Full of love to give

And receive

And keep

And give away, later

When I’m older

Check my pulse

See?

I’m alive

I’m breathing!

I’m not going anywhere

This is my place,

My city, my country

I belong here

at home, at work, at parks

at clubs

Check my pulse

See?

I’m alive

I’m breathing!

I’m ready to Pride

to sing, to dance

To get married

To have children

To take care of my loved ones

To work, to create

Check my pulse

See?

I’m alive

I’m breathing!

And you are too

We are together

Sharing

Celebrating

Loving

Living!

Check my pulse

See?

I’m alive

I’m breathing!

In the flesh

In the memories of our loved ones

In our actions

In our words

In our legacy to the world

In all our queerness

Kronborg

Ophelia waits for me

The nearest to Sweden

I have ever been

The rain falls

as her touch

on my cheek

Her eyes

crying over the world

again

To be always

free

to be

Out of the world

the box

to think

Limitations, dangers

fearless

to live

To be

free

to be

To live

or not

to be

Gone before the dawn

Gone before the dawn

On a date planned long ago

A wordless goodbye

for a timeless song

Curious about you

I’m curious about you.

I’m curious about me, too

about the things I cannot say

and the things I do

I’m curious about you

and I’m afraid, too

of how to handle this feeling

so big and so new

I’m curious about you

And I pray that you are, too

not about my likes or dislikes

but about whether I think of you, too

I’m curious about you.

And I feel like such a fool

’cause I cannot just say

I’m falling in love with you.

I’m curious about you

I’m curious about me, too

I’m curious about we ever having

a drink or two

I’m curious about you

I’m curious about me, too

I’m curious about if you are dying

to kiss me, too.

Do they know where they go

Do they know where they go

when they go?

do you know what is lost

when you give up?

do I know what to say

when we are alone?

does she know she’ll know

when the time has come?

does he know he’ll miss it

when it’s gone?

do we know what we have

before it leaves us behind?

does it always feels sad

when it’s over?

do we care enough

just to wait…

long enough…?

A Moment

In that moment she felt something new:

A peaceful happiness,

A sweet assertiveness,

A mystical mix of forces.

Temptation was defeated,

Was gone.

Her feet moving fast,

Dancing her own song

Was she mad or no longer insane?

Was she dying or being born again?

She never knew,

never tasted life so…

Stars melting over her…

No longer fighting nor alone.

The gentle breeze touching her hair,

She was finally ready….

.to get up and start again…

Time

Time

is not real.

Thin air slipping through

excuses

you let become

truths

Time

is a measurement,

of a thought

a possibility

you don’t let be,

a closed door.

Time

is a chance,

you may not take

a kiss,

a word,

a promise, unkept

Time

is sudden,

an idea within a box

a smile,

a look.

The train you didn’t catch, didn’t run

Time

is within you,

in your hands.

an action,

a step.

Running  risks of reaching routes

to go or

to stay?

Time

is a gift,

an ignored advice

limitations.

Obstacles

I did not see

Time

you and I

wouldn’t ever have

a decision

made

on  a first second

Me

making

my way

Getting

awayfrom you

Time

is you

letting  me

Go

Salivation

Salivation,

security, serenity.

Silence.

Somewhere drops of anger

starting to fall,

a new life style is about to be born.

Someone writes.

Speeches being delivered,

while freedom is about to die.

Somehow it reaches the news.

Something said…

words make believe.

People close their eyes

and ears.

The drought is over.